When I woke up this morning I had this strange feeling that something crucial was missing in my life.
I am currently reading a French novel by Guillaume Musso and there is this discussion between a psy and a girl (who happens to be his own daughter, but he is unaware) and they both say that they are not completely happy because something essential is missing... I had that same feeling prior to reading these few sentences while taking my breakfast.
I am now 31 and lots of uncertainty is still awaiting me. But today I really realized that I am not fully satisfied yet. My career is still not at the level I want it to be but most importantly my private life is far from it. I have now reached a point where I am fully ready to settle down with someone and build a family. I believe that this is what is really missing in my life right now.
Lately I have had an active social life, renewing contacts with some friends in Nyon/Geneva that I now see regularly, but I still have not met that person I am looking for. In the last month I met with 3 girls, we had a drink and then I realized that I did not want to go further with them. None of them met my very severe criteria list which is becoming less severe every other day. But still, what is the point of being with someone if you cannot have serious discussions about what is going on in the world, any politics or economics events or about a nice bottle of wine, or about a book etc.
So the question is where can I meet this kind of person who will have a certain level of education, a certain mutual vision and understanding ?? What can I do to get this chance ?
One says that you generally meet someone through your network, shall it be work colleagues or friends, and I have kind of spreaded the word around me that for me to stay in Switzerland I would need to find that match... How long am I ready to wait ?
I feel everyday an increasing need and some days I feel kind of scared that maybe there is no one for me. Some other days I feel that in this world there must thousands of girls with whom I would feel well. Which is surely the case. But where are they ? Do I know this person already ?
Well, there are days like these where I have thousand of questions going on in my mind...
Tomorrow will probably be a better day...
6 comments:
Welcome to the club. It's probably going to make you feel worse, not better, but you should watch the new Woody Allen's movie...
she is out there.... I am in the same boat as you, in the sense that my heart and home is ready for the love of my life and a family. I have found that being grateful for what I have now, and thankful for what I have 'ordered' (amazing partner, wonderful family on the way)... for me, he is here and has arrived, it is a matter of the universe letting us discover each other when it is time. And I know when it will be him as well, I look forward to it!!! :)
That is why I have stopped dating, ceased looking. To me, it is defining myself as alive... I stay away from the 'single' references for that does not define who I am. And he is here, as the 'she' for you is as well! I focus on what I want, and choose stay away from focusing on what I 'do not want' as the universe does not hear the words 'not' or 'no'. Someone smart, witty, affectionate, silly, ready for a family, who is uplifting, tender, responsive, sensual, motivating, career focused, relaxed and relaxing, someone I can be proud of and who is proud of me, compassionate, treats us as a team, loves to hear me sing, treats me as divine as he treats himself divine, who is courageous, says 'i love you', who is universe centered and has passion for life, treats others-environment-those who are less fortunate kindly and devotes his time and talent to those in need, honors, cherishes encourages and supports with words and actions.... I could go on for ages and lines!
Thanks for writing about this... honestly, it is a great topic for a wine chat indeed.
Too bad I was feeling ill for the Wednesday beer. :(
ps-- ask, believe, receive!
Xavi, I understand EXACTLY what you are feeling. I am going through that too. Sometimes I don't know what to do. Is hope enough?
Come back to Barcelona...
I did this weekend !!! It was amazing... I spend such a good time with my friends, it was really cool.
PS: thanks for the cap, I really like it ! I wore it at the airport and Luca told me that I just looked like a true american. That was funny
;-)
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